
Now and then I'm scared, when I seem to forget how sounds become words
or even sentences ... No, I don't speak anymore and what could I say,
since no-one is there and there is nothing to say ...
So, I
prefer to lie in darkest silence alone ... listening to the lack of
light, or sound, or someone to talk to, for something to share ...- but
there is no hope and no-one is there.
No, no, no ...- not one
living soul and there is nothing (left) to say, in darkness I lie all
alone by myself, sleeping most of the time to endure the pain.
I
am not breathing a word, I haven't spoken for weeks and yet the
mistress inside me is (secretly) straining her ears. But there is
no-one, and it seems to me at times that with every passing hour
another word is leaving my mind ...
I am the mistress of
loneliness, my court is deserted but I do not care. The presence of
people is ugly and cold and something I can neither watch nor bear.
So,
I prefer to lie in darkness silence alone, listening to the lack of
light, or sound, or someone to talk to, for something to share ...- but
there is no hope and no-one is there.
No, I don't speak anymore
and what should I say, since no- one is there and there is nothing to
say? All is oppressive, alles ist schwer, there is no-one and NO-ONE IS
THERE ...
photo:Karl Blossfeldt, title: Monks
thx to Kamiyar for giving that song to me